Disclaimer: we all know that Dani and Tabitha belong to Marvel. We all know that I'm actually losing money by writing this because I have to pay for my Internet connection and snazzy new computer. Oh, and you think it's bad now? You shoulda read it before Rossi beta'd it. Thank you, Rossi.
Regrets
by Bounce
I won't cry anymore. It's pointless. It won't bring her back. It won't wipe away all those regrets. Angrily, I get up from the desk, leaving my half-finished assignment where it lies. I move over to the window and stare out at the park across the road. Winter's over now, the snows melted. But spring hasn't started yet. It's a wasteland, all gray, brown and skeletal trees.
I scrub a hand through long tangled black hair. Sometimes, sometimes I wish death and what came after it was a mystery to me. Then I could believe you were in Heaven. But I know better. Heaven and Hell don't exist.
Domino told me later that you died in battle. That all of you died fighting. My Valkyric sisters would have come for you, as they come for all the fallen warriors. You were the bravest people I ever knew. A tear trickles down my cheek. I know death. But it doesn't make losing you any less painful. I loved you so much. And you never knew.
I think I fell in love with you the first time I saw you. When the demons tried to invade Earth and you and Ric went with the New Mutants to try and find Illyana and get her to close the portal to Earth and stop the demons coming through from Limbo. I remember the way you had this pink bow in your hair. And how you weren't the slightest bit scared.
When I joined up with you and X-Force again, you didn't trust me at all. I can't blame you for that, though. I'd fought with the MLF for so long. Sure I was a SHEILD agent but I'd had to go along with what they did.
And then you were trying to hold a relationship together between you and Sam. And later you were with Bobby. I couldn't say anything then. Couldn't tell you how I was in love with you or how, after Arcadia scrambled my powers, you were the only thing that kept me going and stopped me from destroying myself.
"I loved you, Tabitha, and I am so, so, sorry that I never told you."
Danielle Moonstar turns away from the window and the grey park outside, tears streaming down her cheeks.